week recap.

Need an update? Ok.

The changes since the accident have been minimal as far as progression is concerned. As was mentioned, Kaylee was able to see right up close and nothing farther away. As of now, she can see 10-15 feet away but absolutely nothing up close. She still sees only blues and greens, and she still remembers no one. I'm thinking the change in her vision is an improvement. Seeing depth I think is a good thing... I could be making that up.

Here is what we have learned from observing her:

**If people will call before they just show up (which we hate so don't do it) and we can prep her on who is coming (i.e. so and so is coming and you know them from...) she isn't quite and shook up when she meets them.
**Once she meets you, she will remember she met you. Your name may not stick, but she will remember that she met you.
** She remembers all music. She will sit on the couch and belt songs from musicals all day long. We need to find her some musicals to watch...or I guess listen to since she can't see...
**She is less nervous meeting people now. Where she used to get embarrassed and frustrated, now she figures everyone knows she isn't going to recognize them so it doesn't affect her as much. Its still hard, but getting better.
**The phrase "do you remember..." is the worst thing you could say. Rather than saying "Do you remember sitting by me in science?" say "You sit by me in science." It goes over so much better.
**She never moves. Kaylee used to bounce all over. Now she sits still.
**When she can sit and talk with someone she was close to she seems to remember traits about that person. Amber is mouthy, her best friend is bossy, Grandma is short and always coughs, Ethan always smells good, etc.

Last night I had a meltdown. I have been go go all week long between work and Weber State (my arch enemy) and Kaylee, and for some reason it all caught up to me last night. I thought about Kaylee and replayed scenes from the week in my mind. I thought about all the thoughts and prayers and comments people have been making in her and my family's behalf and the tears just kept flowing. I feel so defeated. Not many things seemed to go my way this week.

I hashed out my schedule with the college on Tuesday. I left feeling defeated. I didn't win the tuition battle; I didn't win the no-minor battle. Went in guns blazin and came out with nothin to show for it, except 8 classes and no money. Wednesday I met my sister. She didn't know me. Once again. Defeated. Thursday I interviewed for a job. Didn't get it. Once again. Defeated. That last one, was not a complete defeat, but it did add to my week. There were some really great things that came from it. I'll keep the posts on her comin. Thanks for all your concern. I can't believe the response we have received from everyone. Ok I'm done with the sob-fest. Let me think of something funny that happened...

Kaylee met the boy that likes her and that she liked before the accident. When he left I may or may not have overexaggerated how much they were in love, and how often they smooched. She was extremely embarrassed. I may have enjoyed it a little more than I should have. What kind of a wretch takes advantage of her blind amnesia-fied sister??? My hand is in the air.